contentment...

so what do i really want to do? sort of a new year's resolution --

1. leave past hurts behind.

2. move to a different country, a far-off province...anywhere but here.

3. meet new people. meet new friends. and perhaps lovers? (hehehe =P )

4. live the simple life i've always wanted.

its weird how our priorities change over time. all i ever wanted was to see my parents live a comfortable life. i don't know why but it seems i owe them that. we are born in this world mostly with no idea of our purpose in life. for me, for a long time -- my purpose was to make sure my family live a comfortable life.

when i reached the age of 25 and thought that i found the love that was really for me: it made me question myself -- if i'm really living MY life. that's when i decided to move out of my parent’s place and find my own, get a master's degree which i've been planning to eversince and stay happy in love with my boyfriend.

but that didn't turn out as planned. i now live in a shared apartment, i'm on my second semester in my master's studies and single.

so what happens when you get to the door of your dreams? do you see it through even if you're not that sure your heart is still in it?

im a blank page right now. i don't know and i don't see what's next. hmm, something to ponder on...