"For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me, you don't want to. Cause when you find that right person for a first kiss, it's everything. "
- Alex Karev, Grey's Anatomy
Monday, October 01, 2007
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Wala Lang Magawa...(reads: ayaw lang gumawa)
Ayon sa isang pag-aaral, ang mga henyo daw ay nagmumula sa malalaking lahi at sa mga lugar na malaki ang populasyon tulad ng China at India. Eto raw ay sa dahilang mas malaki ang bilang nang mga taong dapat nilang mahigitan bago sila matanghal na henyo.
Kumbaga sa isang klassroom na may dalawanpung estudyante, ang pinakamagaling ay sunod lamang sa pinakamagaling ng isang klaseng may limampung estudyante.
Sa bagay, istatistiks na to. Matematika. Mahirap kalabanin lalo na kung isang simpleng tao ka lang na nabubuhay sa simpleng "addition", "subtraction" at kung sinuwerte may unting "multiplication". Sa opisina kaya, ganun din? Pag maliit lang ang isang kumpanya at may isang "henyo", wala siyang sinabi kumpara dun sa henyo sa malalaking kumpanya. Medyo ayaw ko ata tanggapin. May "reservation" ikanga nila. Haay.
Henyo. Bobo. Anong pinagkaiba? Kung di mo naman nauunawan kung pano pagalawin ang mga plano. Ang ideya ay ideya lang. Ang galaw...yun ang nakakapagpa-andar ng bato, ng bus, ng kompanya...at ng bukid.
Sa mga henyo at sa mga hindi...galaw-galaw! (baka ma-stroke!)
Monday, September 03, 2007
For Good
Wicked The Musical
(Elphaba):
I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...
(Glinda):
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
(Glinda):
Because I knew you
(Both):
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
(Glinda):
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
(Both):
And none of it seems to matter anymore
(Glinda):
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
(Elphaba):
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood
(Both):
Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better
(Glinda):
And because I knew you...
(Elphaba):
Because I knew you...
(Both):
Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good...
Wicked The Musical
(Elphaba):
I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
For both of us - now it's up to you...
(Glinda):
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
(Glinda):
Because I knew you
(Both):
I have been changed for good
(Elphaba):
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
(Glinda):
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
(Both):
And none of it seems to matter anymore
(Glinda):
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
(Elphaba):
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood
(Both):
Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better
(Glinda):
And because I knew you...
(Elphaba):
Because I knew you...
(Both):
Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good...
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Duality
i've been sitting in the backseat for quite a while now. its not that i'm tired of driving --- it's more of not being familiar with this new course. i am resigned to the backseat...its dark and my eyes find it hard to focus under the direct attack of bright lights. yes, i'd rather be in the backseat.
and what i've just said --- all of it --- all BS! =P
i'm sitting in the backseat. period.
i believe this is what they call slowing down. some parts of my life have been compartmentalized -- not by choice (rather, a consequence of a choice). come to think of it, i can push against the boundaries, but i choose not to -- i don't feel the need to.
interestingly enough, i feel ok. i see myself as a heavy boulder running along a straight path purely by inertia and letting whatever external forces - be it strong winds or a hump on the road - to steer me to a new direction or slow me down.
as long as i feel this way, as long as i feel the need to lie down on the grass fields and create stories and images out of the clouds of the vast sky -- i will do so, to my heart's content. =D
and what i've just said --- all of it --- all BS! =P
i'm sitting in the backseat. period.
i believe this is what they call slowing down. some parts of my life have been compartmentalized -- not by choice (rather, a consequence of a choice). come to think of it, i can push against the boundaries, but i choose not to -- i don't feel the need to.
interestingly enough, i feel ok. i see myself as a heavy boulder running along a straight path purely by inertia and letting whatever external forces - be it strong winds or a hump on the road - to steer me to a new direction or slow me down.
as long as i feel this way, as long as i feel the need to lie down on the grass fields and create stories and images out of the clouds of the vast sky -- i will do so, to my heart's content. =D
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
i'm back...
"there are times you need NOT ask questions."
knowing myself just oh-so-well, i raised an eyebrow (as expected really!). but hey, i promised myself i'd be at least calm. don't let the the tiger out -- well at least NOT YET! hehehe =P
to be fair, i get the point. but getting the point is not synonymous to agreeing. agreeing takes a lot more. and yes, i got confused. so like the old me that i know, i kept my mouth shut while the mind takes its own time understanding what's happening.
why the hell do we need to complicate things that can be as simple as A-B-C? can somebody please answer me?
(oh well, im asking questions -- again!)
knowing myself just oh-so-well, i raised an eyebrow (as expected really!). but hey, i promised myself i'd be at least calm. don't let the the tiger out -- well at least NOT YET! hehehe =P
to be fair, i get the point. but getting the point is not synonymous to agreeing. agreeing takes a lot more. and yes, i got confused. so like the old me that i know, i kept my mouth shut while the mind takes its own time understanding what's happening.
why the hell do we need to complicate things that can be as simple as A-B-C? can somebody please answer me?
(oh well, im asking questions -- again!)
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Monday, February 12, 2007
ride the waves...
im torn with the idea of not getting too attached and loving someone...truly loving someone...
its been hard being in relationships that eventually don't work out the way you planned. everyone gets hurt. when you feel so much love for someone, you give them a part of you, something they never asked for you to do but you give it anyway. so you can't deny the hurt when things go wrong.
what's the usual scenario after this? for those that even consider that they are no longer the person they thought they were when they entered their relationships, and with the abrupt end -- doubts are everywhere. you begin to question the things that for a time you really believed in -- like true friendship, love, and sharing your life with someone. You begin to question the basic idea of love.
we've all been burned. every single one of us. we've all had our hopes broken down to pieces. we've all seen the cracked mirror images of ourselves. and we deal with it in our own individual ways. we try to get by. we choose to get by.
and taking this "not to be attached" perspective is in itself, one of the different ways we handle the situation. for some people, this will probably serve as a new perspective in life...a new belief...a new dogma to live by.
but how can you really love without getting too attached? what is love to those people who believe that in life, things and people are just momentary (even if its the truth)? how can you love and share your life with someone with the intent of not getting too attached. aren't the two the exact opposite of each other? can we say the same with our own families? how can you hold a baby in your hand and love her/him..yet hold back? how can you muster the courage to tell yourself that if that little baby you're holding finally finds its way "home" to where we all came from, that it will be okay because you won't get too attached?
acceptance is hard when you do not fully understand the truth that you want to embrace.
perhaps it is not in defining things and feelings that we get the answer. all the geniuses of the world can rationalize both sides of a coin and make them come across as strong truths. but who defines truth? even the truth, as the philosophers claim it, can be bounded and justified to be either truth or false depending on the perspective taken. but who can question happiness? who can set its limits? who can question thoughtfulness and contentment? who can rationalize those feelings?
there's no point to set boundaries to how we should live life. i think its one of the biggest misconceptions...to actually say to yourself that the way to enjoy life is not to do this and not to do that.
enjoy the waters,
enjoy the moments...
ride each wave if you must
but don't hold back
don't fear getting too attached
let your heart and mind take its own battle.
don't ever hold back...
to say you've truly lived.
ride every wave.
"it's in those moments of sadness, anger, ecstasy, and lust that we can freak out and fall, or just relax and go with it. once we are comfortable on our boards, we can carve it up, analyze it, just play. and when a beautiful wave comes, perhaps we fall in love or hold a newborn baby, we can catch it, maybe even get inside the hollow tube and see its beautiful emptiness. but we will know as the wave ends not to be attached. it's just a bunch of salt water."
- the zen of surfing by jaimal yogis
its been hard being in relationships that eventually don't work out the way you planned. everyone gets hurt. when you feel so much love for someone, you give them a part of you, something they never asked for you to do but you give it anyway. so you can't deny the hurt when things go wrong.
what's the usual scenario after this? for those that even consider that they are no longer the person they thought they were when they entered their relationships, and with the abrupt end -- doubts are everywhere. you begin to question the things that for a time you really believed in -- like true friendship, love, and sharing your life with someone. You begin to question the basic idea of love.
we've all been burned. every single one of us. we've all had our hopes broken down to pieces. we've all seen the cracked mirror images of ourselves. and we deal with it in our own individual ways. we try to get by. we choose to get by.
and taking this "not to be attached" perspective is in itself, one of the different ways we handle the situation. for some people, this will probably serve as a new perspective in life...a new belief...a new dogma to live by.
but how can you really love without getting too attached? what is love to those people who believe that in life, things and people are just momentary (even if its the truth)? how can you love and share your life with someone with the intent of not getting too attached. aren't the two the exact opposite of each other? can we say the same with our own families? how can you hold a baby in your hand and love her/him..yet hold back? how can you muster the courage to tell yourself that if that little baby you're holding finally finds its way "home" to where we all came from, that it will be okay because you won't get too attached?
acceptance is hard when you do not fully understand the truth that you want to embrace.
perhaps it is not in defining things and feelings that we get the answer. all the geniuses of the world can rationalize both sides of a coin and make them come across as strong truths. but who defines truth? even the truth, as the philosophers claim it, can be bounded and justified to be either truth or false depending on the perspective taken. but who can question happiness? who can set its limits? who can question thoughtfulness and contentment? who can rationalize those feelings?
there's no point to set boundaries to how we should live life. i think its one of the biggest misconceptions...to actually say to yourself that the way to enjoy life is not to do this and not to do that.
enjoy the waters,
enjoy the moments...
ride each wave if you must
but don't hold back
don't fear getting too attached
let your heart and mind take its own battle.
don't ever hold back...
to say you've truly lived.
ride every wave.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Times Like These
Imagine this -
An early morning sun
I sit on a stool in the bar
Fingers tapping on the wooden plank
With Jack Johnson, guitar riffs
and the deep soothing voice in the background
My mind is surfing through the waves
Server lady just handed me my drink
And it brought a smile to my lips
The cold beer in my hand and the seawinds against my skin
And somehow I wonder where heaven could be
Im calm, at peace and quite unbelieving
And I wonder where heaven could be?
@Sebay Resort in San Juan, La Union
An early morning sun
I sit on a stool in the bar
Fingers tapping on the wooden plank
With Jack Johnson, guitar riffs
and the deep soothing voice in the background
My mind is surfing through the waves
Server lady just handed me my drink
And it brought a smile to my lips
The cold beer in my hand and the seawinds against my skin
And somehow I wonder where heaven could be
Im calm, at peace and quite unbelieving
And I wonder where heaven could be?
@Sebay Resort in San Juan, La Union
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
contentment...
so what do i really want to do? sort of a new year's resolution --
1. leave past hurts behind.
2. move to a different country, a far-off province...anywhere but here.
3. meet new people. meet new friends. and perhaps lovers? (hehehe =P )
4. live the simple life i've always wanted.
its weird how our priorities change over time. all i ever wanted was to see my parents live a comfortable life. i don't know why but it seems i owe them that. we are born in this world mostly with no idea of our purpose in life. for me, for a long time -- my purpose was to make sure my family live a comfortable life.
when i reached the age of 25 and thought that i found the love that was really for me: it made me question myself -- if i'm really living MY life. that's when i decided to move out of my parent’s place and find my own, get a master's degree which i've been planning to eversince and stay happy in love with my boyfriend.
but that didn't turn out as planned. i now live in a shared apartment, i'm on my second semester in my master's studies and single.
so what happens when you get to the door of your dreams? do you see it through even if you're not that sure your heart is still in it?
im a blank page right now. i don't know and i don't see what's next. hmm, something to ponder on...
1. leave past hurts behind.
2. move to a different country, a far-off province...anywhere but here.
3. meet new people. meet new friends. and perhaps lovers? (hehehe =P )
4. live the simple life i've always wanted.
its weird how our priorities change over time. all i ever wanted was to see my parents live a comfortable life. i don't know why but it seems i owe them that. we are born in this world mostly with no idea of our purpose in life. for me, for a long time -- my purpose was to make sure my family live a comfortable life.
when i reached the age of 25 and thought that i found the love that was really for me: it made me question myself -- if i'm really living MY life. that's when i decided to move out of my parent’s place and find my own, get a master's degree which i've been planning to eversince and stay happy in love with my boyfriend.
but that didn't turn out as planned. i now live in a shared apartment, i'm on my second semester in my master's studies and single.
so what happens when you get to the door of your dreams? do you see it through even if you're not that sure your heart is still in it?
im a blank page right now. i don't know and i don't see what's next. hmm, something to ponder on...
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